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September 10, 2025

[fatherless daughter]

a.d.

 

The fatherless daughter mourns,[1][2][3] moans,[4] laments,[5][6] despairs,[7] desires,[8] yearns,[9] doubts,[10] prays,[11] attends,[12] devises,[13] schemes,[14] manipulates,[15] deceives,[16] despises,[17] misunderstands,[18] elicits pity,[19] elicits sympathy,[20] is heartbroken,[21] shattered,[22] and rent,[23] refuses to listen,[24] rebels,[25] rejects,[26] acts illogical,[27] abnegates herself,[28] is forsaken,[29] is bereft,[30] renounces reason,[31] clings to misfortune,[32] is bewildered,[33] is stranded,[34] is deformed,[35] disfigured,[36] deranged,[37] is vindictive,[38] is self-destructive,[39] is self-indulgent,[40] is both woman and child,[41] is enraged,[42] finds hope,[43] then relapses,[44] succumbs to fitful sleep,[45] starves herself,[46] falters,[47] suffers unremittingly,[48] lays with the dead,[49] remembers,[50] blames,[51] curses,[52] orphans herself,[53] is obstinate,[54] is obdurate,[55] becomes a violation[56] but herself remains inviolable,[57] is wretched,[58] is unrestrained,[59] is extreme,[60] bargains,[61] implores,[62] endures,[63] is imprisoned,[64] enslaved,[65] confined,[66] is desolate,[67] is isolated,[68] fears,[69] raves,[70] mutilates herself,[71][72][73] marinates in misery,[74] wallows in her palace of tears,[75] is inconsolable,[76] is helpless,[77] courts her own ruin,[78] renders her life impossible,[79] is in love with things unbearable,[80] is irredeemable,[81] is eaten alive by grief.[82]

 

 

References

  1. Lefkowitz, Mary, translator. Sophocles’ Electra. The Greek Plays: Sixteen Plays by Aeschylus, Sophocles, and Euripides, Lefkowitz et al., Modern Library, 2016.
  2. Ruden, Sarah, translator. Aeschylus’ The Oresteia: Libation Bearers. The Greek Plays: Sixteen Plays by Aeschylus, Sophocles, and Euripides, Lefkowitz et al., Modern Library, 2016.
  3. Wilson, Emily, translator. Euripides’ Electra. The Greek Plays: Sixteen Plays by Aeschylus, Sophocles, and Euripides, Lefkowitz et al., Modern Library, 2016.
  4. Ibid., p. 596, l. 151
  5. Carson, Anne, translator. Sophokles’ Elektra. An Oresteia, Carson et al., Farrar, Straus and Giroux, 2009, p. 92, ll. 138-143
  6. Lefkowitz, op. cit, p. 336, l. 108
  7. Wilson, op. cit., p. 614, l. 759
  8. Carson, op. cit. p. 107, l. 537
  9. Ruden, op. cit., p. 121, l. 496
  10. Wilson, op. cit., p. 607, ll. 524-529
  11. Ruden, op. cit., p. 111, ll. 129-148
  12. Carson, op. cit., p. 102, ll. 411-413
  13. Ibid., p. 137, ll. 1259-1261
  14. Wilson, op. cit., p. 611, l. 647
  15. Carson, op. cit., p. 136 ll.1240-1241, p. 138 ll.1263-1290
  16. Wilson, op. cit., p. 611, ll. 651-652
  17. Ibid., p. 599, l. 281
  18. Carson, op. cit., p. 116, ll. 753-754
  19. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 366, l. 1199
  20. Ibid., p. 336, l. 121
  21. Carson, op. cit., p. 91, l. 125
  22. Ibid., p. 130, l. 1095
  23. Ibid., l. 1096
  24. Ibid., p. 143, l. 1376
  25. Lefkowitz, op. cit. p. 347, l. 516
  26. Carson, op. cit., p. 107, ll. 544-545
  27. Ibid., p. 108, ll. 551-552
  28. Ibid., p. 96, l. 249
  29. Wilson, op. cit., p. 598, ll. 198-199
  30. Carson, op. cit., p. 130, l. 1104
  31. Ibid., p. 108, ll. 551-552
  32. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 337, l. 143
  33. Carson, op. cit., p. 154, l. 1635
  34. Carson, Anne. (2009) An Oresteia, Introduction to Sophokles’ Elektra, p. 77
  35. Ibid., p. 78
  36. Carson, op. cit., p. 151, l. 1584
  37. Ibid., p. 139, l. 1306
  38. Ibid., p. 97, ll. 280-284
  39. Ibid., p. 94, ll. 184-185
  40. Ibid., p. 103, l. 447
  41. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 350, ll. 617-618
  42. Ibid., p. 339, l. 222
  43. Carson, op. cit., p. 102, ll. 411-413
  44. Ibid., p. 132, ll.1151-1152
  45. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 335, ll. 92-93
  46. Ibid., p. 341, l. 283
  47. Carson, op. cit., p. 147, ll. 1486-1488
  48. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 338, l. 168
  49. Carson, op. cit., p. 130, ll. 1111-1112
  50. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 337, ll. 144-145
  51. Carson, op. cit., p. 119, ll. 836-837
  52. Ibid., p. 102, l. 406
  53. Ibid., p. 118, l. 803
  54. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 361, ll. 1019-1020
  55. Ruden, op. cit., p. 118, ll. 393-395
  56. Carson, op. cit., p. 105, l. 481
  57. Ibid., l. 495
  58. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 366, l. 1178
  59. Ibid., p. 339, l. 224
  60. Carson, op. cit., p. 99, l. 338-340
  61. Ruden, op. cit. p. 121, l. 486-487
  62. Ibid., l. 481
  63. Carson, op. cit, p. 99, l. 341
  64. Ibid., p. 100,  l. 356
  65. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 340, l. 265
  66. Ibid., p. 341, ll. 312-313
  67. Carson, op. cit., p. 96, l. 251
  68. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 341, l. 285
  69. Wilson, op. cit., p. 627, ll. 1198-1200
  70. Carson, op. cit., p. 131, ll. 1122, 1124, 1134
  71. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 335, l. 90
  72. Wilson, op. cit., p. 595, ll. 147-148
  73. Ibid., p. 598, l. 241
  74. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 335, l. 77
  75. Carson, op. cit., p. 95, l. 224
  76. Ibid., p. 98, ll. 303-305
  77. Ibid., p. 93, ll. 159-162
  78. Lefkowitz, op. cit., p. 339, ll. 215-216
  79. Carson, op. cit., p. 92, ll. 138-140
  80. Ibid., p. 94, ll. 192-193
  81. Ibid., p. 93, ll. 179-181
  82. Ibid., p. 93, l. 166

a.d. is drawn to the sacred, the profane, the mysterious and the mythological, which provides inspiration for her work. She is a Pushcart-nominated bisexual poet and visual artist, and her poetry is published or forthcoming in Aôthen, Anti-Heroin Chic, THINK, God’s Cruel Joke, PISSOIR! and elsewhere. Meanwhile, her visual art, mainly photography and self-portraiture, is or will be featured in Hominum Journal, Moonday Mag, body fluids, Antler Velvet, Bleating Thing and other outlets. Tumblr & Twitter: @godstained