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THERE WERE DAYS BOARDING THE BUS TO CAMPUS I USED TO FANTASIZE ABOUT IT HITTING YOU. I WANTED YOUR BODY TO BE ENCUMBERED WITH A SIMILAR FIRE. I WANTED YOU TO ATONE. I LATER REALIZED YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS A PUNISHMENT YOU’VE GIVEN YOURSELF. IN EXCHANGE FOR THE ARDUOUS WORK OF BECOMING A KIND PERSON WHO SAYS SORRY SOMETIMES. OH MY GOD. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING EVER INCLUDING MY SNUGGLY WHICH WAS AN OLD CLOTH DIAPER I USED TO SLEEP WITH BECAUSE IT WAS SO SO SOFT. WHEN I FINALLY THREW MY PACIFIER AWAY IN THE KITCHEN TRASH, I WAS CLUTCHING MY SNUGGLY & MY DAD HOISTED ME INTO THE AIR & CHEERED. I UNDERSTOOD LOYALTY FROM AN EARLY AGE. YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A RAINSTORM ON I-5 NORTH. THE ADMISSION CAME DIRECTLY AFTER YOU JUSTIFIED TRYING TO SLEEP WITH MY ROOMMATE. ACTUALLY I SHOULD BE FLATTERED BECAUSE SHE REMINDED YOU SO MUCH OF ME. HE’S SO GORGEOUS I’LL NEVER FIND ANYONE MORE ATTRACTIVE. NO ONE ELSE COULD PULL OFF A MESH TOP LIKE THAT EXCEPT MAYBE LIL NAS. I’LL COMPARE EVERY FUTURE LOVER TO YOU. IF WE FUCKED, I’D SIMPLY PERISH RIGHT HERE. I’D CUM A THOUSAND TIMES THEN DIE OF A HEART ATTACK. I WISH HE DIDN’T SLEEP WITH MY HOT FRIEND & THEN LIE TO ME ABOUT IT. WHY DIDN’T YOU READ MY BOOK? DO YOU FEAR THE DEPTH OF MY LOVE? OH MY GOD I WANT TO FEED YOU SOUP. I WANT YOU TO WANT ME, HEATH-LEDGER-STYLE. I FEEL SO SMALL & UNWORTHY I FORGET TO HAVE MY OWN THOUGHTS. WE’RE BONDED SPIRITUALLY & ARTISTICALLY & NO ONE ELSE WILL EVER UNDERSTAND. THE ONLY POWER COUPLE THAT MATTERS EXCEPT WE’RE NOT A COUPLE. CAN WE CHAT ABOUT THAT? NO WORRIES IF NOT. OUR RELATIONSHIP TRANSCENDS TIME WE WERE SO BRAVE FOR STICKING IT OUT. DO YOU KNOW HOW TREACHEROUS & MINDMELTING THAT FEELS? TO WADE THROUGH THE SLUDGE OF BROKEN TRUST & GRIEF SO FERAL YOU FORGET YOU’RE A PERSON? WHY DID YOU ABANDON ME? I’M PRETTY SURE YOU’RE THE SMARTEST PERSON I’VE EVER MET. I’M GOING TO LOVE YOU FOREVER. I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE. I WANTED IT TO MEAN SOMETHING.