I’ve always said anything can happen in twenty four hours

willing the next second to contain the catalyst for change I’ve been craving

 

I message someone I haven’t talked to in three years that I’m thinking about him

and it feels like that changes everything

 

My sister goes to get dilated with seaweed

and I delete 200 emails from my inbox

 

She brings me back the best tuna sandwich I’ve ever had

 

Before bed my nephew asks to see the moon and we all walk outside

He points and says “there’s the moon!” and I tell him it’s in Aries

 

My brother in law wakes me up with the baby monitor

He has to take my sister to the hospital

 

I check my phone and see it’s after midnight

and that I got a text back at 10:52 p.m.

 

I can’t sleep

 

My sister gave birth too early

and I never get to meet my new nephew

 

I wake up at five a.m.

my nephew asks where his mommy and daddy are

 

I remind him that she wasn’t feeling well

and tell him they went to the doctor

 

He eats his yogurt and lets me help get him ready for daycare

before asking again

 

My brother in law does drop off and goes back to my sister

I ask how she is

 

A dumb question

 

I delete 200 more emails to distract myself

I wonder what the text says

 

I go to Culver’s

and sit in the corner with my kids' meal

 

Two guys keep looking at me and when I think they leave

they knock on the window from outside and ask me to add them on snap